2.16.26
i dont wanna go to work. jk im blessed to go to a great job.
today i just feel lazy tho, feels like i forgot to do something..
cant think of what it is. im listening to summer babe-winter version - pavement
its fine. i heard it last night after my all time favorite cary the zero - built to spill
played and it sounded better. prob just cuz that built to spill song is so damn good
and was lingering. fat and skinny asses - piebald just came on this ones fire.
anywho i have to pee just wanted to come in here and say something. built to spill ya they
are the best thing ive ever seen live and ive seen bladee outside at sunset.
bawld my eyes out that whole concert. (for built to spill) vibrations man. 4 tall boy pbrs
might have played a role in that too.. beer. too lazy to talk well right now. feels very
monotone in my brain. just meh. time to go to work.

2.10.26
well it actually just turned to the 10th its 12:42 am
listening to yung lean - agony because i started freaking out and
i guess i just wanted to feel worse. feel like shit. just feel like fucking ass shit
I FUCKING HATE THIS SHIT. im chill i just looked at my recent art work too much.
shit is fucking fuck ass man what the fuck am i doing anyways. im just joking
im just being dramatic. why cant i even allow myself to just feel like shit.
im not joking and i fucking hate this shit and i want to blow everything ive
ever made up.
ok songs on its second run i feel better. im sure ill like how it looks tomorrow. anyways
who cares though right. i make shit for the release right. shits not supposed to makes
me need to release again later right.? well it is and what the hell does that mean.
this song is so good. i made an video to this song when i was in highschool and
i think about it often. here it is: https://www.instagram.com/p/BmY1bH0BI9_/
so much pain man. these feelings spike like spears flying into me
and i grab the spear and just stab myself all over again and again i just want to know im here

this song named so well. me and all the homies when we were like 17 would just
sit back and listen to this like it was the most profound and depressing thing in the
world coming home from the skatepark. what a bunch of idiots xD here i am alone at 25
doing damn near the same thing but this time im typing to myself. xD

2.9.26
hello. yo!!!!!! help me i have started to casually play cs again but its very hard to play
casually.. thinking about eating the block of tofu in the fridge and working on a t-shirt
design for my friends band Left On Read. ate the block of tofu.
right now im listening to 波兰首都是上海 - yourboyfriendsucks a song i used to bump
all the time but just appeared on my spotify daylist (titled: chinese taiwanese indie sunday morning)
which is interesting cuz its monday...
thats about it. just wanted to make a post before work
now a song called stay/stayaway - yourboyfriendsucks is playing. in the middle of thats
eve came out and turns out my kettles been whistling for a while xD my music was too loud
whoops. that songs fire tho

ok im back after a 20 min music search break. ended up listening to a current favorite
pennybox - racecourse and i think this song helped bring me back to what i wanted
this blog spot to be. a place where i can put my emotions into words when im overwelmed with
passion. this song is incredible, this song is the kind of song that makes you want to getting
up and chear for all the things you have been thru in life, good and bad, and all
the amazing and creative things you will do in life.

WOA HOLD THE PHONE! found an incredible singapore indie band called vegtable
please look them up this cover art for through the motions is unbelievable

2.4.26
yo i am currently listening to last night i dreamt that sombody loved me - the smiths
and yep this one is just too good. could just sit here and listen to this one. thats what im doing
think ill try to compile my favorites of all time here, just so i can remember too.

now im listening to dancing in the club - mj lenderman version and juice (my cat)
is walking all over my keyboard and getting hair everywhere. this song makes me bounce around
in my chair. basically though writing all of this thinking of music,

impossible germany - wilco

is still the best thing ive heard in a damn long time. you can just hear the passion in it. real bands,
with real care and talent. sometimes everything just lines up and a magnum opus is born.
shit makes me legit bawl, i be crying like a baby hearing something so beautiful. just a giant release of
all of their passion and love and pain, you can feal it! the vibrations are so releasing that you just flipping
start bawling!!! thats some real shit right there.
and man. that half song guitar solo...
and i got this damn haircut and now none of my clothes or body feel right.

its nighttime now, 11:56pm to be exact, i think this might just become my diary.
anywho i was listening to that smiths song again and it reminded me of eves favorite show twin peaks.
next thing you know i found myself down a rabbit hole on r/twinpeaks in a discussion about
music that reminds people of the show, which lead me to:
the funeral party - the cure and wow
what a great song to end the day to.
me and eve just ate way too much fried rice that i made and are just lounging listening.
box wont stop meowing at the door.